Earlier this year my dear husband, J.B., had a major meltdown, an emotional break down. I have never seen him in such despair. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know how to help. He wanted to die. He said I'd better take him to the hospital. There’s no hope. God has forsaken and abandoned him. I got my dad and we took him to the ER. I was afraid (and yet hoping at the same time) that all this was caused by another blood clot like the last time he was so sick. They check him out, made sure there were no blood clots in his lungs again and checked everything they could think of…but that wasn’t it.
The doctor spoke to me alone in the hallway, he had such a serious look. He told me that my husband really needs help and he can’t do anymore for him. He needs to go to the other hospital. Then he asked “Are you ready to commit him?”
My heart sank. I felt like falling down. I could hear myself (in my head) screaming “NO! God please! This isn’t fair! What am I to do?!”
And in my spirit I heard Him say “Answer this question…Are you ready to commit him or Are you ready to commit to him?”
We’ve been married 19 years so far and I would like to think I’ve been pretty darn committed to him so far! Then He reminded me of the vows I made…"I promise to stand by you regardless of the situation around us. Whether we’re rich or poor doesn’t matter, spending my life with you does. In times of sickness and thru the blessings of health I will love, cherish and obey you…with all my heart I believe our union in Christ is now and forever.”
Well, what can you say after a speech like that?! How can I say anything less than YES! of course I will commit to him! I don’t know what this will entail, and I'm scared to death but I do commit myself to him and with God’s help, do what I can to help him thru this terrible time. And trust that God will see both of us thru this stronger and hopefully wiser.
